a poem

I didn't realise it had been so long since I blogged. I did take the decision to stop for a while mostly because it seemed to be getting so negative and moany it wasn't helping. Anyway, after an awful few weeks with R and her almost collapsing in my arms in distress today I sat down tonight in tears after everyone was in bed and wrote my first ever poem.

Since the day you were born you were happy and bright
the sun shines through your hair gold and bright
then hormones and stress did turn up one day
little did we know they seemed to be here to stay
sometimes I look at your distress and stare
on days like this it feels like Rebekah's not there

Oh where did she go I'm sure she was here
here's hoping that she's still somewhere near
the hope and the dreams seem so far away
on a horrible stressful and upsetting day like today
today I looked at your face tearful and bare
and I knew that again Rebekah's not there

the world must seem such a confusing place
it only takes a minute to see that in your face
the hurt and confusion for all to see
but you hold it in and only show it to me
my happy smiling girl seems to have vanished into thin air
cos right this minute it feels like Rebekah's not there

I hate that this world can be such a cruel place
a few misplaced words shows the hurt on your face
a few careless words, a comment without thought
a snide remark that leaves you distraught
I'm sure that she's here, I'm not sure where
today is a day that Rebekah's not there.